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In My Dreams I Hold a Knife

By Ashley Winstead
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Publisher Description

"[A] mordant debut novel....examines what it means to covet the lives of others, no matter the cost."—The New York Times

"Tense, twisty, and packed with shocks."—Riley Sager, New York Times bestselling author of Survive The Night

Six friends.

One college reunion.

One unsolved murder.

Ten years after graduation, Jessica Miller has planned her triumphant return to her southern, elite Duquette University, down to the envious whispers that are sure to follow in her wake. Everyone is going to see the girl she wants them to see—confident, beautiful, indifferent. Not the girl she was when she left campus, back when Heather Shelby's murder fractured everything, including the tight bond linking the six friends she'd been closest to since freshman year.

But not everyone is ready to move on. Not everyone left Duquette ten years ago, and not everyone can let Heather's murder go unsolved. Someone is determined to trap the real killer, to make the guilty pay. When the six friends are reunited, they will be forced to confront what happened that night—and the years' worth of secrets each of them would do anything to keep hidden.

Told in racing dual timelines, with a dark campus setting and a darker look at friendship, love, obsession, and ambition, In My Dreams I Hold A Knife is an addictive, propulsive read you won't be able to put down.

"Beautiful writing, juicy secrets, complex female characters, and drumbeat suspense—what more could you want from a debut thriller?"—Andrea Bartz, author of Reese's Book Club pick We Were Never Here

643 Reviews

Smiling Face with Heart-Eyes“I loved this book! I had it in my tbr for so long and so glad i got to read it! ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️”
Beautifully writtenEasy to readAddictiveThrillingUnpredictable
Expressionless Face“This book was just underwhelming in my opinion. I kept wanting to skip ahead and just read the end. I never did because it was interesting enough to a point I thought I might miss out on an important detail. I skimmed a lot of it though. And the ending dragged out needlessly for for too long it could have ended 5x just by Ch.44. There was really no need whatsoever Jessica’s added “twist” at the end. It really added nothing to the story.”
Couldn't connect with charactersComplexTwistySexual assaultUnlikable charactersUnsatisfying ending
Surprised Face with Open Mouth“I can’t believe I waited so long to read this book. I really enjoyed it. I enjoyed reading these unlikeable characters and anticipating the next twist. Highly recommend!”
Multi-layered charactersEasy to readAddictiveTwistyCreepyDark settingAngstySexual assault
Surprised Face with Open Mouth“It took awhile for me to get into it. I believe after the hallway point I started to get into the characters and story. However the last 15 to 10 chapters, I couldn't put the book down. Wow. What a fun, exhilaration and twisted ending.”
Surprised Face with Open Mouth“This books was so good! There was insane drama and toxic friendships that had me glued to my kindle! The characters flaws all come to light and it’s just so messy in the best way! I know I’ll be thinking about this one for awhile!”
Morally ambiguousEasy to readAddictiveFast-pacedThrillingRealistic settingThought-provokingAbuseSexual assaultViolence

About Ashley Winstead

Ashley Winstead is an academic turned novelist with a Ph.D. in contemporary American literature. She lives in Houston with her husband, two cats, and beloved wine fridge. You can find her at www.ashleywinstead.com.

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