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I Want to Die But I Want to Eat Tteokpokki

By Baek Se-hee
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Publisher Description

The South Korean runaway bestseller, debut author Baek Sehee's intimate therapy memoir, as recommended by BTS.

PSYCHIATRIST: So how can I help you?

ME: I don't know, I'm – what's the word – depressed? Do I have to go into detail?

Baek Sehee is a successful young social media director at a publishing house when she begins seeing a psychiatrist about her - what to call it? - depression? She feels persistently low, anxious, endlessly self-doubting, but also highly judgmental of others. She hides her feelings well at work and with friends, performing the calmness her lifestyle demands. The effort is exhausting, overwhelming, and keeps her from forming deep relationships. This can't be normal. But if she's so hopeless, why can she always summon a yen for her favorite street food: the hot, spicy rice cake, tteokbokki? Is this just what life is like?

Recording her dialogues with her psychiatrist over a twelve-week period, and expanding on each session with her own reflective micro-essays, Baek begins to disentangle the feedback loops, knee-jerk reactions, and harmful behaviors that keep her locked in a cycle of self-abuse. Part memoir, part self-help book, I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki is a book to keep close and to reach for in times of darkness. It will appeal to anyone who has ever felt alone or unjustified in their everyday despair.


Aku: Bagaimana caranya agar bisa mengubah pikiran bahwa saya ini standar dan biasa saja?

Psikiater: Memangnya hal itu merupakan masalah yang harus diperbaiki?

Aku: Iya, karena saya ingin mencintai diri saya sendiri.


I Want To Die But I Want To Eat Tteokpokki adalah esai yang berisi tentang pertanyaan, penilaian, saran, nasihat, dan evaluasi diri yang bertujuan agar pembaca bisa menerima dan mencintai dirinya.

Buku self improvement ini mendapatkan sambutan baik karena pembaca meraskan hal yang sama dengan kisah Baek Se Hee sehingga buku ini mendapatkan predikat bestseller di Korea Selatan.

108 Reviews

Expressionless Face“This has been on my TBR for a while and a book I REALLY wanted to read but actually I was a-bit disappointed. I really enjoyed some of the conversations between therapist and main character but outside of this everything felt a little wishy-washy. I’m not sure about the reviews at the end either, things just didn’t conclude or make sense. Having said that, I did really like that there wasn’t a ‘happy ending’ because it relates a lot more to every day life!!”
Loudly Crying Face“this book came to my life when i needed to hear those words the most, i cried in many of the chapters and i identified quite a lot, i send a big hug to the writer and to all those who identify with this book too <3”
Beautifully writtenEasy to readHeartbreakingHopefulMade me cryMeaningfulMotivational
Surprised Face with Open Mouth“I saw myself in this book”
Believable characters
Loudly Crying Face“❝ the contradictory state of longing for intimacy but also wanting to keep others at arm’s length is called the hedgehog’s dilemma. i really wanted to like this, especially beause it's meant to be such an open and honest look towards someone's genuine feelings as they go through the process of navigating their mental health. the book has such real quotable and introspectively wonderful bits here and there, but it didn't hold my attention for long.”
Characters change and growLikable charactersAngstyInformativeDidn't grab my attention
Thinking Face“It should have been interesting to me, but it was just too much of the same.”
Didn't grab my attention

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