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I Feed Her to the Beast and the Beast Is Me

By Jamison Shea
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Publisher Description

There will be blood.

Ace of Spades
meets House of Hollow in this villain origin story.

Laure Mesny is a perfectionist with an axe to grind. Despite being constantly overlooked in the elite and cutthroat world of the Parisian ballet, she will do anything to prove that a Black girl can take center stage. To level the playing field, Laure ventures deep into the depths of the Catacombs and strikes a deal with a pulsating river of blood.

The primordial power Laure gains promises influence and adoration, everything she’s dreamed of and worked toward. With retribution on her mind, she surpasses her bitter and privileged peers, leaving broken bodies behind her on her climb to stardom.

But even as undeniable as she is, Laure is not the only monster around. And her vicious desires make her a perfect target for slaughter. As she descends into madness and the mystifying underworld beneath her, she is faced with the ultimate choice: continue to break herself for scraps of validation or succumb to the darkness that wants her exactly as she is—monstrous heart and all. That is, if the god-killer doesn’t catch her first.

From debut author Jamison Shea comes I Feed Her to the Beast and the Beast Is Me, a slow-burn horror that lifts a veil on the institutions that profit on exclusion and the toll of giving everything to a world that will never love you back.

39 Reviews

Beaming Face with Smiling Eyes“Loved this book! Laure was completely relatable as a person of color in society. To be forced to be perfect to be accepted and then told that perfect for you is not enough but mediocre for everyone else is revolutionary is absolutely infuriating. I can understand why she did what she did. But loved her journey of accepting herself, accepting others, and doing what’s right in the end. Even when no one thanked her for it. A great “villain” origin story. I heard there is a second book coming soon, so I will definitely be following this author 😊”
Characters change and growDiverse charactersMulti-layered charactersEasy to readSuspensefulTwistyDark settingRealistic settingDarkHeartbreaking
Surprised Face with Open Mouth““No matter how much the river guided me. It gave me the knife and I drove it in” This was sooooooo well done. The start I was a little exhausted with the ballet talk, but this was DARK DONE RIGHT. You could feel the MCs hunger, drive, and want for being accepted. And also wanting to keep loved ones close even if they weren’t deserving. She was complex but very well fleshed out. Also really loved the little dark romance. I need a company like yesterday 🩰💗”
Believable charactersCharacters change and growDiverse charactersLikable charactersMulti-layered charactersBeautifully writtenDescriptive writingEasy to read
Thinking Face“This was kinda wild lol but I didn’t hate it. It was very much black swan mixed w some real demonic influence 😅 but make it ya. It was definitely an interesting plot for this book. I just didn’t give it 5 stars bc it was kinda predictable.”
Believable charactersOriginal writingFast-pacedImmersive settingDark
Thinking Face“I liked it, it was pretty predictable but that's not really the problem I had with it. It just got very frustrating at times when the main character would defend her best friend even though they have proven time and time again they were not a good friend. I wouldn't describe their relationship as a friendship and more of a codependency. In the end I did enjoy the other characters and that made it worth finishing the book. I also don't agree that this is similar to Black swan, the only similarity is the toxic ballet environment.”
Diverse charactersLikable charactersDark setting
Anxious Face with sweat“I loved the premise of this book! A Black, queer ballerina MC who is unafraid to do whatever it takes to achieve her goals—like yes! However, there was something that I was missing from this book. I didn’t always enjoy the relationship dynamic between some of the characters, or their interactions. But I will say—this book was scary!😳a pretty good horror debut!”
Multi-layered charactersDescriptive writingOriginal writingDarkViolenceUnsatisfying plot

About Jamison Shea

Jamison Shea was once a flautist, violist, anthropologist, linguist, choreographer, dancer, professional fire alarm puller, digital producer, and account executive—but they've always been a writer. Born in Buffalo, NY and now surrounded by darkness and gloom in Finland, when Jamison isn't writing horror, they're drinking milk tea and searching for long-forgotten gods in eerie places.

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